Ok, honestly hour. You guys know I’m big on transparency over here so here we go. This week I had my first ever real deal Instagram hater. I’ve had weird spam accounts and nasty comments before, but this was just a regular person who had a real problem with me and my page. And here’s the deal, I always thought that when I got my first hater I wouldn’t care, I’d brush it off and move on because I do have pretty thick skin and I’m pretty strong. But the messages came at the worst possible time.
As you all know I’ve had a life-long struggle with anxiety. I mean for as long as I can remember. Growing up I remember thinking that I had to be the only one in the world who was feeling the way I was feeling. I felt like my world had the potential to come crashing down at any minute and it was scary. I didn’t understand it. And I wanted so badly to get away from it.
It has been such an incredible little journey of documenting the days and really choosing to focus on what God is speaking and showing us every single day. It has really challenged me to not just go through the motions but to allow Him to use all the ordinary parts of the day to shape me into who He wants me to be. And my hope is that the entries are relatable and encourage you to see Jesus in your every day as well.
As we get back to it I want a couple of things to change. First of all, that verse at the top underneath my picture, 1 Corinthians 16:13 is going to be our new blog verse. It has always been one of my favorite verses and one of the many that has encouraged my heart the most. And now I think it’s the perfect verse to represent our little community, a group of girls who are brave, strong, and most of all loving, who stand fast in their faith no matter what. So, definitely expect to see it a lot more.
In my opinion, one of the biggest lies that keep people from beginning a walk with Jesus is that they are somehow not good enough for Him, or have done too much to be loved by Him. And honestly, I could not be more passionate about this topic. I think it is vitally important to understand that the love of Jesus and the power of His sacrifice on the cross are so much bigger than anything we could ever do on this earth.
Ok, at this point you all know how much I love to talk about acne and skincare, I have told you a little bit of my story and my journey with cystic acne and I want to share all of the things I’ve learned with you.
We are created for love. Our hearts are designed to love and be loved, which is why so many of us spend our lives striving for love whether that be in a friendship, a relationship, or a family situation, we long for love and we will go to crazy lengths to get it.
While I was scrolling through pictures I found myself comparing yet again. Looking at all of these girls that are traveling the world, moving across the country to chase their dreams, engaged to the love of their lives, buying houses, having babies, and supposedly living better lives than I am. I found myself wondering why my life wasn’t like theirs.
I so clearly remember being in PE when I was little. They would put us all in a big group and then the “team captains” would take turns choosing who they wanted on their team. I was super lucky when the team captain was one of my best friends, we would kind of wink at each other and I knew I would be chosen for their team quickly. But, when it wasn’t one of my besties, my lack of hand eye coordination often left me standing with the last couple of people in the group, heart racing, hoping I would be chosen before I was the last one and someone got stuck with me on their team.
Acne. My long time companion. My constant struggle. I have sooooo much to say about you.
Here’s the deal. I’ve struggled with acne for a long time. Like 11 years at this point. And by now I have tried just about everything under the sun to get rid of it. I’ve also done hours and hours of research and I’ve learned a lot about the largest organ in the body, the skin. And now, I want to share everything I have learned with you!!!